I Bore Myself Too

I'm terrible at making friends. Really.

Particularly when I meet people through classes. I don't think I have a single friend that I met through class (one, kind of, but we had about a billion common friends so I don't count him in that number). Living in the same dorm, rugby, roommates, friends of friends, bars...pretty much sums up how I meet people. Here? I have classes. No roommates, no dorm, no rugby. Bars, sure, but I only go to the bar for football, so usually everyone's hammered and it's daytime. Not an ideal situation to meet people.

I love Virginia. Blacksburg, while small and isolated, is a pretty nice place to live. And I love Tech. But I hate that everyone I care about is several thousand miles away, and my social inadequacies are making me feel more and more isolated. Of course, less socialization means more time to study...but it doesn't end up working out that way. I've got to have downtime somehow, it just usually translates to Facebook or reading web-comics (sad, I know).

It doesn't help that my step-mom harasses me every time we talk, making me feel bad about the fact that I haven't made friends yet. This isn't the first time...for years I got shit for not having any female friends. All it really does is make me feel worse about not being able to meet people.

Actually I shouldn't say it like that...I'm great at meeting people. It's just getting past that first part, to where you can be social out of the initial context, that I can never seem to make happen. I talk to people in my classes...but only in my classes. I've met and talked to some of my neighbors...but only in the stairwell. I've never been able to get to that "hey we should hang out some time" stage.

What is wrong with me?